Life in pictures

In November we had family photos done. They were beautiful and I used a few of them for our Christmas card 2013! There are many I will cherish for life. I didn't realize that this would shock people. I didn't realize the amount of judgement that would be placed on me. "So soon after you lost your baby" hmmmm my pain is real and very sharp because I don't fall into a big pile of mush when you see me doesn't mean I don't long to hold my baby. In fact I shed tears everyday because I held my lifeless child never did I see him take a breath of life! Not even a moment for me to hold as a memory of his life. My baby died inside me and I birthed him and after a few hours I had to walk away.  I had the pictures taken for many reasons the biggest being that our family had just undergone a tremendous amount of pain and this is proof that we were still standing! I also appreciate that so many have prayed for our family and have had many say that they keep a photo close by to remind them to pray. So whatever people think it was something we did! My advise go get your family picture done because you never know what tomorrow holds.