Everything I ever wanted

Out the door we went. I was pushing the stroller loaded with my 7 month old son and alongside were twins, on our way to kindergarten 2012. School had been in session a little over a month at that point and I remember thinking wow, so this is normal? I enjoyed every part of it! It took years but this is what I always wanted, really wanted. Doing things a normal mom did. Ahhhh I took a breath and soaked it all in. Life was so beautiful. Unforeseen was the challenging and devastation of 2013.

Just as the calendar year changed so did the quiet of the life I was enjoying. The life I called normal. The life I had desired for so long. Struggling with activities, gymnastics  Taekwondo and a 10 month old, the balancing act of it all was dwarfed by my sons cancer diagnosis. Everything set aside to care for him.

Cancer is a scary word. It is a word that brings you to your knees. For me it didn't seem so scary at the time. I guess it needed time to sink in. It all came together (or apart however you want to look at it) rather quickly once he was diagnosed. In the hospital I often thought of his twin sister. They were only 5 how would she go through life if he died. How was I going to get her through this? How was I going to get through this? Pressing on these types of questions popped in and out of my head all the time. I tried not to stop on any one for it was just a thought and I could only deal with the truth of the day, facing what we knew not facing the scary things in our heads. Yes it is something to think of the future but Gods got that.

As school gets ready to start August 20th 2014 the twins are going into 2nd grade! We are all ready for that walk, the one normal people do. My 2year old in the stroller and the twins on each side.