Judgement

Judgement is something I think we are all guilty of. At some point in our lives we have been judgmental of someone for any number of reasons. Sometimes as humans we think we might know better than someone else. No matter what they are going through. Throughout my adult life I have been the subject to many watchful eyes. As I move forward through I try and keep that feeling close at heart not to keep the hurt close by but the idea of those feelings to help me to treat others better. When I was at the lowest of lows I received many emails, texted and calls informing me that I was not asking for enough help! There was not a need for more. I was treading water doing my best to reach out for the life preservers and then being judged for how I was doing it. I have never really addressed it to those people just thanked them for their caring. The truth is that I WAS reaching out to those around me who had most if not all of my needs covered. In this journey my children needed to be handled with care not just dropped of anywhere, picked up by anyone. There were many offers by very capable hands to care for them however my children didn't know them. In a world that is spinning so fast it was important to me that my kids cling to those they felt comfortable with as much as possible. In a situation I could not control I could still be a good mom and take care of my kids with as much love as in my heart even though I couldn't always be there.

Moving forward I try to listen to those lessons I learned and when I offer to help someone I do it whole heartedly with the intention to follow through when asked but do not take offense if they do not ask me. They may have others coving those needs. I also pray that if they really need my help that God removed any reservations they have about asking.

Again I thank those that God had given me through this journey and even those that offered judgement. Sorry I didn't do things your way God got me through this and will continue to guide me.